Life is a Bitch.

Friday, March 04, 2005'♥

kae..my 3rd post 2dae.
watever.juz feel lyk bursting.
wat shld i do.i rly dono.
u alwaz said u will msg me or col mi later.
but ur later never never comes.
y muz u lie.if u r really talking 2 ur bud.
i dun c a nid 4 u 2 lie.
u carn b bothered 2 even explain things 2 me.
u dun even haf de patience to.
once n agn i gif u baq da trust u shld haf.
instead of u earning it baq urself.
but u break it all over again.
tats juz not u.
its all excuses.
its an excuse tat u needa cut down on ya msg-es.
its an excuse tat u r busy for da whole dae till u carn even gif mi a simple msg.
its an excuse tat u r alwaz alwaz tired.
its even a damn farking big excuse 2 tell mi u r a lazi person.
when someone rly matters 2 u
u wont b acting this wae.
u came up wid so so mani excuses.
u think i dono anitink.
u r not lyk tat in da past.
u tink i carn c n feel tis big big diff.
u changed thoroughly.
u can col a ger in da middle of da nite.
but u carn even gif mi a simple msg s promised.
tats so not u.u werent lyk tis at all.
fine.i kip quiet.
wat else u expect me to do.
u tink i enjoy quarrelling wif u.
i dun.n i juz hate it.
but u r da one who alwaz started it indirectly.
i believe u rly do love mi in da past.
but not animore.
da difference is too great.
u no longer assure mi anitink.
u no longer gif mi da kinda secure feeling.
u no longer care for me.
u no longer bother abt anitink.
u no longer do tose tinks tat u used to do
to make me feel loved.
i wana gif in.n i tried.
but deres alwaz a limit to everything.
i wan nothing.
but juz u 2 shower some care n love on mi
to dote on mi n pamper mi at tyms
to b dere 2 hear my probs when i col u
2 assure me now n den da feelings u haf 2wards me
2 gif mi a sense of belonging in ur lyf.
n make mi feel secure in ya arms.
tats wat every gal would ask for.
is tat all too much.
i dun wana sit here alone wif my tots drifting so far
i dun wana sit here n afraid tat im sharing u wif others
i dun wana sit here tearing again.
im down rite disappointed in u
wif all da answers u gave.
i guess i came to realise aft everything
i juz gotta accept this cruel n harsh facts
tat i no longer matters 2 u
n u no longer love mi animore.
i dun wish 2 b sharing u wif others.
but its something i carn take control of.
dun sae u miz mi when u dun.
dun sae u love mi when u no longer do.

Zombie@3/04/2005 11:59:00 PM